With you, it’s easy. I know exactly how I feel about you, I don’t question it, I don’t doubt it. Picturing a future with you isn’t difficult, it’s actually quite simple. Sure, some days are tougher than the others, but being with you was the best decision I ever made. No matter how long it’s been, every day still feels like the first couple of weeks we were together. That feeling just never went away and I honestly can’t imagine when it ever will.
I look at our relationship and realize that it’s such a big part of my life, and how much you’ve impacted it after all this time. I look at how happy we are with each other and how in love we are. I never want that to change. I get scared of things not being the same anymore after a while and I know that I shouldn’t let my insecurities get to me like that because that will only lead to problems. I’ve learned to just put these thoughts in the back of my mind and i try to only focus on how good we’ve got it and how happy we are.
When I read about couples that have been together for so long and then they break-up, I instantly think about us. I don’t compare the two because I know that their relationship isn’t like ours. I just can’t help the fact that it triggers my insecurities, fears, and worries to crawl back into my consciousness. I’ve never been able to picture a future with anyone until you, and I promise that no matter how many fights we have, no matter how many disagreements we have, I’m going to give our relationship my all because you’re so important to me and the thought of not being with you just scares the hell out of me.
You can be a complete asshole. We cuss at and fight with each other and we both have huge egos. You push me past my breaking point and you know the exact buttons to push to drive me insane. But at the end of the day, it’s you. It’s always going to be you. Nobody makes me feel the way that you do. Nobody before you has ever made me feel how you do. And I have this gut feeling that nobody after you will ever have this effect on me.
The love that we have for each other, I can’t even attempt to give to another. You make me feel alive. I love you.
I can try and try to express my love and admiration for the man that I call my boyfriend, but I’ll never find the proper words to justify how wonderful he really is. I can honestly say that I’m always happy and satisfied with the person that I’m with and the person that I’ve become since meeting him.
I’ve been told that at the age that I’m at, looking for the person that I want to spend my life is senseless and ridiculous, but I never looked; he just kind of fell into my life. I never expected for him to mean so much and be so much to me.
I’m proud of the person that he is, every single aspect of him – flaws and all. And I’m even prouder to call myself his girlfriend. He gives me a certain confidence about myself that I’ve just recently discovered.
The greatest thing that you’ve done for me can’t be measured with materialistic items or extravagant gestures; no, not even close. It’s all that you’ve taught me, all the lessons that I’ve learned since we’ve been together. All patience and forgiveness that you’ve shown me when I made mistakes. The best ways to deal with people and situations, you’ve shown me. The encouragement and support that you’ve given me when it came to my goals and dreams.
Best of all, it’s just merely the love that you have for me. It’s not the overbearing and “let me show the world” kind of shit. It’s the supportive, understanding, patient, caring, low-key, love. Even so, it’s much more than that. I’ve never met a man that I’ve felt more happy and complete with. A person that doubled as my best friend and my love. A person that was like a mentor to me. A person that absolutely captured my entire heart. A person that understands me completely. A person that so opposite of me yet so similar. Call it crazy, call me crazy – but I know that this is real.
Thank you, baby! 😀
Just as confidence is a sexiest trait on a women; humility is equally, if not more, sexy than confidence. The ability to still stay humble while knowing how amazing you are is pretty damn great.
When a person who doesn’t say anything about their skills but let their actions speak for themselves, it makes them a lot more likable. Because it’s embarrassing as hell for somebody who brags about their skills and doesn’t have the ability to back it up.
Don’t talk out of your ass, stay down to Earth.
*February 10, 2013*
I keep replaying the words that you said to me over and over in my head and they still hurt as much as the moment you said them. I repeat scenes from our past over and over again and they still evoke emotions as passionate as the day that they happened. I’m bitter, beyond bitter. You are mad at me, and I’m pissed as fuck at you.
Call me bitter, tell me to get over it because it’s all in the past but that all doesn’t matter because I’m still always gonna feel the way that I feel. Telling me that we can still be friends is like telling me that my dog died but I can still keep it.
I’m hurting, yo. I don’t want them to see me fall. But damn, I need some type of comfort from somebody. I don’t want pity or their sympathy. I want some compassion, I want somebody that will relate to me.
They say time heals all wounds but I feel like time ain’t moving for me cause damn, this shit is painful.
*February 11. 2013*
I’m pretty sure everyone has that certain somebody that they’re weak about. It doesn’t matter how badly that they hurt you, it’s easier to take them back – be with them than it is to just let go. It’s love, you tell yourself. You can have all the pride and strength in the world but it’s just that person that keeps you coming back.
And you have no fucking clue why it’s so hard to let go.